You should run while you can
This isn’t a life
You wanna take on
Look at this mess

You should run while you can
I tend to cry in the kitchen
Once the kids are in bed
Wake up and do it all again

Loving me will never be easy baby
I come as a package
Got the heaviest baggage
Loving me will never be easy babe
These four little hands
Pull me a million ways

So you should run while there’s time
Mistakes are contagious
You don’t wanna catch mine
Besides, you gotta make your own

Throw your tent in the car and drive
You say you’re missing the mountains
The freedom and quiet
Well that’ll never be you and I

Loving me will never be easy baby
I come as a package
Got the heaviest baggage
Loving me will never be simple babe
These four little hands
Pull me a million ways
Loving me will never be fun
You’ll never be my number one
And you deserve that from someone

I’ve made it easy for you
The door’s open wide
But I’m wondering can you see through
To this fear in my eyes
Here’s my body
Here’s my scars
Now show me what kind of man you are

Cos loving me will never be easy babe
I come as a package
Got the heaviest baggage
Loving me will never be easy babe
You’ll never be my number one

But if easy’s not your way
God, I’d love you to stay

The trees are swaying out the window and you’re not with me today
You’re with him and that’s okay. That’s okay.
I hope you’re running round in circles, hope you’re laughing till you drop
Hope you’re feeling safe, I hope you’re feeling loved

The days are longer when you’re not here, I’ve been staring at the sky
Wondering what I used to do with all my time
You’re a universe of starlight bursting out of every seam
And the house is so damn quiet when you leave

You’ve been asking lots of questions lately, trying to figure out
Why the endings in your books don’t match ours
And it breaks my heart trying to find some words you’ll understand
Cos baby nothing about this was in the plan

All that I can tell you is a complicated truth
I’ll always love your daddy, cos together we made you

From the moment I first met him I knew everything would change
Your daddy woke my heart up in the kitchen that day
He wore no metal armour, rode a vesper not a horse
But I’d never felt so seen and so adored

We loved each other’s faulty parts, we kissed each other’s wounds
Till one day we were opening them too
And I know your books don’t end like that, I know it’s hard to take
A promise is a promise you say

And all that I can tell you is a complicated truth
I’ll always love your daddy
But now our love is something new

Now I’m walking past your empty bedroom, turning off the lights
And I’m hoping that he’s tucked you in tight
Because I haven’t had the answers lately
Haven’t known what to say
When you ask me why love runs away

And all that I can give you are these complicated truths
Sometimes happiness is the hardest thing to choose
But I’ll always love your daddy, cos together we made you

Every light inside me’s on
Kiss me now until I’m gone
Hold my hips up, take my speech
Guide me where the light don’t reach

But you should know I hate myself
For once believing in someone else
You should know a part of me
Got left behind when four became three

Turn the lights out, close my door
Toss the evening on the floor
Show me there’s infinity
Hiding in your love for me

But you should know I hate myself
For once believing in someone else
You should know a part of me
Got left behind when four became three

Careful what you love

Be my saviour, be my friend
Help me to black out the end
Kiss me on my deepest cuts
Inside I’m screaming out for us

But you should know I hate myself
I once believed I was someone else
You should know I’ve burned that dream
No-one ever recovers from the hole that leaves
No-one ever recovers from the hole that leaves
No-one ever recovers from the hole that leaves

So careful what you love
Careful what you love
Be careful loving me

There’s a crater in my living room floor
I have to walk around just to get to my front door
And it’s embarrassing having people over
Watching them politely trying not to fall
Trying not to fall

There’s a crater in the middle of my chest
I’ve had to rearrange each organ and I confess
It’s been a little hard having people notice
Everything I feel
Deep inside me when
I’m just trying to pretend

I know one day they’ll fill in
I know it will be fine
I know by now becoming whole again
Just takes time

We all need a story of hitting rock bottom sometimes
And these craters will be a part of mine

There’s a crater on the left side of my bed
I have to lie facing the right side or I get upset
And it’s humiliating having lovers over
Watching them retreat backwards down the hall
Not mentioning it at all

I know one day they’ll fill in
I know it will be fine
I know by now becoming whole again
Just takes time

We all need a story of hitting rock bottom sometimes
And these craters will be a part of mine

But I’m gonna launch right off the bottom
Of the deep holes that you left
Gonna use these scrappy wings
I found while cleaning out my chest
And I’m gonna soar so beautifully
It’ll hurt your eyes
But today it’s just these craters and I

I know one day they’ll fill in
I know that I’ll be fine
I know by now becoming whole again
Just takes time

We all need war stories to look back on and smile
And God damn it, these craters will be mine

Each morning I wake up wondering if it’s time
Is today the day I leave it all behind?
Cos I want that feeling people talk about
When you finally let it go
When you finally put it down
I no longer love him and that’s the truth
So why can’t I step forward?
Why can’t I seem to move?

I’m not who I used to be
Not yet who I’ll become
This is the in-between
I guess
I’m not who I once was
Not sure who I’ll be
But it seems time will not be rushed
When you’re in the in-between

I’ve been craving affection lately, yeah the adult kind
Someone to kiss me hard enough to bruise my mind
Yeah, I want that feeling they write songs about
Someone to break my ribs, find my dark and pull it out
But I can’t seem to open, can’t seem to find
Any space for love right now, in this here heart of mine

I’m not who I used to be
Not yet who I’ll become
This is the in-between
This is the re-writing

I’m not who I once was
Not sure who I’m gonna be
But it seems time will not be rushed
When you’re in the in-between

How long, how long does it take to leave?
How long, how long does it take to leave?
The in-between

When you want something you’re not ready for
Guess the only choice you got is
To surrender, let go
And feel it all

I think I’m ready for whatever comes next
How long can I scold myself for flunking the biggest test
I think I’m ready for the turning of the wheel
Find fresh waters for these old wounds to heal

All that it took to try to succeed
Then when I failed, what it took from me
But it’s intermission, life’s calling me back
I think I’m ready for the second act

I think I’m ready for the story to change
Don’t know what I believe anymore, maybe that’s ok
I think I’m ready to forgive myself
Nobody knows what they’re doing, they’re just acting well

All that it took to try to succeed
Then when I failed, what it took from me
But it’s intermission, life’s calling me back
I think I’m ready for the second act

All that it takes, to do what we must
Then when we fail, what it takes from us
But it’s intermission, life’s calling us back
I think we’re ready for the second act
Hey, are we ready for the second act?

I’ve been trying not to want you
I’ve been trying not to care
But you don’t seem to be letting me
No, you’re not playing fair

I’ve been trying to run the numbers
Use my head and not my heart
But then you kiss me, my mind turns liquid
And I’m back to the start

Can’t you see I’m only half repaired
Held together by string and glue
I’m a work in progress honey
Don’t make me love you

I’ve been trying to be a bad choice
Make you gamble in the red
I’ve been giving you my body’s fire
When it’s cold inside my head

Cos I’m trying hard to show you
That I’ll tear you from within
I’m a crack filler from way back
But I’m in remission

Can’t you see I’m only half repaired
Held together by string and glue
I’m a work in progress honey
Got so much mending to do
Don’t make me love you too

Oh, why aren’t you letting me go?
Silly boy
Oh, why aren’t you letting me go?

Oh, why aren’t you letting me go?
Silly boy
Oh, why aren’t you letting me go?

Can’t you see I’m only half repaired
Held together by string and glue
Yeah, I broke in half once
Falling for someone like you

Can’t you see I’m only half stitched up
Held together by threads of truth
Got my work cut out pretending
I’m good as new
So, don’t make me love you
Don’t make me love
Please don’t make me love you too

I said it out loud 23 times
I’m not gonna make the same mistakes
I promised the river
Held my child and whispered in her hair
Life is not a poem, it’s a war

And I’m not gonna fall for the broken ones anymore
Anymore

I pay a stranger every two weeks
To repackage my thoughts for me
But now there’s a razor between your lips
That kiss will make my heart unzip
And I want it like I need it

But I’m not gonna fall for the broken ones anymore
I’m not gonna fall for the ones like me
With darkness in their bellies
I’m not gonna fall for the broken ones
No, I’ll be smarter from now on
So much smarter from now on

Two people trying to save each other
Only pulls them both further under
Don’t waste your strength waving at me
I’m a life jacket made of concrete
Got darkness I’ve been trying to run from
Only thing keeping me sane are these songs
I don’t want to touch the open skies
I just need a safe place to hide

Cos I don’t wanna fall for the broken ones
The luminescent wild ones
The dancing on electric wire ones
Tumbling through the sky ones
Chasing the essential fire ones
The haunted agonised ones
The tortured juggling knives ones
Beautiful crazy-eyed ones
Death tugging at their mind ones

No, I’ll be smarter from now on
So much smarter from now on
Only problem that I got now is
Who’s gonna fall for this broken one

It was never meant to be like this
No, it was never meant to be like this
You were never meant to leave and I was never meant to cry
Clutching my heart, scratching at my eyes

It was never meant to be like this
I thought that our story was written, I knew it by heart
The parallel arrows together escaping the dark
That was you, that was me
That was our story arc

I don’t know why I thought
This couldn’t happen to me
I don’t know why I thought there’d be pages more to read
But the book went up in flames
And I got blisters on my cheeks

Cos it was never meant to be like this
We were gonna last, I’d already inked you under my skin
Like the deeper the needle, the longer you were locked in
It was never meant to be like this
So how do I do it, how do I un-see it all?
The future was painted, I’d hammered it into my wall
It was never meant to fall

I don’t know why I thought
This wouldn’t happen to me
I don’t know why I thought
There’d be more pages to read
But the book went up in flames
I got blisters on my cheeks
Guess our story for the ages
Had a twist I couldn’t see

All the chairs are on the tables
And they’re asking me to leave
I would stand if I were able
But I simply can’t believe
That our story for the ages
Is now ashes at my feet

Hush now my little baby
Time to sleep
Time to forget everything
Hush now my little baby
Time to sleep, it’s the safest place to be
And may the years carry you gently
May the wonder never leave your heart
May the colours of the darkness not scare you
And may the sound of my voice always hold you
Long after I can’t
Long after I can’t

Wake now my little darling
Time to see
Time to begin everything
Up now my little darling
Time to see all the things this world can be
But how I hope some things stay hidden
Until your sweet heart has strength to see
For below all these soft clouds there’s darkness
And a poison that looks oh so sweet
Oh, stay close to me
Won’t you always stay this close to me

Come now my little grown boy
Let me see you
Tell me about everything
Come now my little grown boy
I know you’re strong but today it seems I’m not
For the world feels like it’s running
And I’m back here, two feet in mud
Can you believe I once thought I’d protect you?
When the truth is you’re stronger than I ever was
You’re my son, my moon
Won’t you promise me you’ll come back and visit me again soon

Standing under the Sydney Harbour Bridge
Wearing my blue velvet dress, peach on my lips
Holding my black guitar like without it I might break
That’s the night everything changed

Feeling your eyes behind each lens
Smiling so well no-one knows that it’s pretend
I’d painted over every red streak down my face
That’s the night everything changed

And I’m still stuck at New Years Eve 2021
It’s killing me
Up there in my favourite blue velvet dress
Singing to strangers, my heart in shreds

Cos nobody knew that I’d just lost you

But holding white knuckles to the past
Like if I squeeze tight enough, it’ll change it’s path
Living like I never stepped down from that stage
Well, it’s time something changed

Cos I’ve been stuck at New Years Eve 2021
And it’s killing me
Still wearing that favourite blue velvet dress
Singing to strangers, my heart in shreds

But I’m seeing it now like I couldn’t before
Blue velvet was the colour I wore

But I don’t wanna wear this damn dress anymore
I’m zipping it down, I’m taking it off
I’m finding a new one, something sparkling and bright
Something for the future and not for that night

Cos I’m seeing it now
Like I couldn’t before
That blue velvet ain’t my colour no more